krismaez

krismaez @ 2009-09-19T22:48:00

2009-09-20T05:57:39Z

today was an amazing day - first of all, i worked late last ngiht so i could have today to myself - we got up early, and started getting ready - today was the funeral for my cousins wife, and my parents were meeting us @ the house, and we were going over together...so up, got coffee, breakfast, and then curled the hair, got all my girls ready and my parents got here late - then we all got in the car, and instead of going together, we went in all of our cars - my brother came down, which was nice, havent seen him in forever - on the way, little did i knwo until later, that my parents got in a fender bender - imagine that - a motorcycle hit them in the back - cRAZY - they were ok, but good crunch on the back of my dad's truck - the get together was awesome - they (disney) of whom Kristin (my cousins wife) put on the affiar - they hoooked up the food, tents, music, chairs, etc - it was very nice - but the best part, and nothing best about funerals, and the loss of life, but that i reconnected with my cousins after 20 years - i grew up with them, and have so many fond memories, and i miss them - truly miss them - i hope we all dont fade back into the background - i've cried a couple of times hugging my cousin Brian, as i'm sure the days ahead will be tough - he's strong, but i want him to know i'm here for him for whatever he needs - he always was there for me - me and him always were in trouble, or making each other laugh - an amazing day - though again, so sad, she was 32 years old, left behind two beautiful young girls, 5 and 4...they will never know the one thing i know about her, is just how azmaizng she was - she had an incredible smile, and even for the brief time i met her last year at my duaghters party, she was so nice, and welcomed me as well into thier lives - they will know thier mother by whatever memories they may have, or pictures, or stories people may tell them, but it wont be the same - my kids had a good time today too, meeting people they never met before - and now i'ts home to unwind, and wiat for monday :)
love you all facebook friends :) - may each of you appreciate the life you have, the breath you take, adn the love we all take for granted, remember that life is precious in all capacities, and it's so short, here on day and gone the next - hug the one you are next to - tell them you love them, and take inventory of your life often - for we are mere specks that forget what we have and how amazing it is

krismaez @ 2009-09-17T07:38:00

2009-09-17T14:43:48Z

sorry i havent been here in awhile - FB has taken over my life - of course i'm busy this year, my second kid is a senior this year, which also incudes diong the senior pics which we did over the summer, soon to be driving, she takes her test on the 21st, and all the other acrtiviites she will be doing this year. i also have a freshman this year, my 3rd daughter started HS this year, it made me a little sad, as i see all of them growing, and my baby is in 5th grade, and that too makes me sentimental because being the baby, she'll be in junior high...this stuff is supposed to get easier. Work has been really busy lately which should be good, i'm still alive, and opened, and all the fun stuff but we are clawing to stay alive thorugh all the debt. We are figuring out what we need to do - i know we are planning on still running, but we made do some sort of reoroganization to help with the debt -we will see - it's been an itneresting year - personal life, well, my husbands uncle died 2 weeks ago, and then my cousins wife just Sunday - its alot of death all of a sudden, i feel the worse for my cousin - she was young, and they have two young children, but we have an aamzing family, and everyone has come down to be with him....it will be intersting to see all the fam after nearly 20 years....
i'm off to take my duaghter to school - miss you friends - most of you i see on facebook - but this is different, more personal
love ya - peace today and everyday

krismaez @ 2009-06-17T08:28:00

2009-06-17T15:35:23Z

ok, so what's up with me? work sucks, i'm dilligently working every day, working on new clients, working on keeping excisiting ones, trying to squeeze money out of turnips, to keep our heads above water, i dont want to be a casualty in this economy but it's tough - employees are giving me hell, including old employees - it's all fun - so antoher day of work, another day of the endless headache that finally makes me sick, i am just trying to get through - any ideas?

long time no hear

2009-05-29T05:36:49Z

Ok, so you think i vanished, i havent vanished, i am kind of on facebook, but not even barely there as life has kept me super busy - i'm always busy having kids, husbnad, my business, etc...the economy has affected the business in a way where i need to be at the office more, working, selling, talking, working all the fun stuff you know - i recently fired my assisntant, long story, it ends with me now doing the accounting, the customer service, the orders, the shipping, the phones, etc....which then leads me into that my niece is here with me - she's workign with me, and i'm working on getting her on her feet, and she's doing pretty good, just need to get on her about structure, etc....kids are good, i love teenagers, and border line crazy teenagers, my 9 yr old is getting mouthy, and testy which leaves me wondering how my sweet little angel turned into this child i dont know, my other two teenagers, are doing pretty good, cant commplain, typical, all the kids are great kids, i cant say they arent, it's just the usual not keeping your room clean, complaining, whining, spoiled, not doing homework attitude that makes me crazy....health has been pretty good lately though with the stress, i'm not sure, i'm getting some neck pain, and arm pain again, not bad but enough for me to notice, i have noticed i'm getting dizzy spells lately which makes me concerned, and headaches more than i liek - headaches i've always dealth with but out of the blue the dizzy spells, i dont know what that's all about -
i feel pretty good emotionally, some days i want to cry, others i feel really good, and then i seem to try to balance both of those feelings all day - maybe i'm craazy or borderline crazy, but osmeitmes i feel like a fraud, i'm smiling happy and juggling though it feels like i'm just defrauding some i know cuz inside i'm confused, scared, angry, and bewildred, but then i flip and i'm feeling light as air cuz it's all moving along - i dont make any sense, i rarely do, i'm just trying to deal and get through
business is picking up though i can always do more, i'm excited for osme of the things going on, and i'm happy that im helping make a difference with my niece, i do love my family and nothing i would ever not do for them, which then makes me miss my mom and sisters
anyhow, i jsut wanted to post so you all knew i was alive, maybe some of you can put some words to what i'm feleing, put it into prospective, to those of you who i love, and miss, Kori, David, and Dawn - i miss you - love you more than you will ever know, and i count myself lucky to have my group of friends, that bear with me through my insanity, and at the end are still willing to call me thier friend :)
peace out

hi everyone

2009-03-29T07:04:48Z

So, as Dawn and I have agreed, since we started FB, LJ has taken a backseat - nothing personal - just seems it has taken over my life :) - life here has been pretty good, nothing too esciting - we are still trying to figure out what's up with kathleen - good days bad days - even the nutrionist we went to see was baffled as to why the rheumatologist would send her there, so we wil head back to the PED's doc, and go from there - maybe it's all stress related, or i passed on the bad GASTRO Gene, but the nutrionist did recommend that my youngest see a gastroentologist, so off we will go - work has been crazy,it's busy, but people still paying slow which makes me pay slow etc - but somehow it's working out, and i feel blessed - personal life isnt bad - hubby and i celebrated our 19th anniversary, fairly quickly but it still was nice - we went to disneyland, and went to blue bayou which coincentally we went to when we were dating, so it signifed our 20 yrs of being togethr, and 19 of being married, right after that we went on piratse of carribean, and headed home for his 6 am flight out on a business trip, so short and sweet, but it was nice. the kids decorated the house, and made us a cake with a little disco ball that was lit right in the middle - it was really SWEET - the rest of the year is going to BE REALLY busy, but its good - so for a change, nothing to depressing posted, life is the same ups, downs, stress, sickness, etc - but i'm happy - i feel blessed throught it all
love and peace to all of you

re:hey there

2009-03-13T01:51:03Z

Yea, i havent posted in awhile, i think about it, but have no energy - ive been so tired lately, which makes me wonder if there's not more going on - anyhow - update: so since back surgery, i have felt 100% better, just now i'm getting headaches every day which makes me wonder is it my back, or what? i take excedrin, tylenol, nothing helps, so i dont know what to do. i am folliwng up with physican to get my heart checked, so far so good, the only thing i know so far is i have skpped beats, what causes that? anyone one out there know? next week, i get to wear the halter for 24 hrs to follow up and see what's going on with my little ticker, so that's me in a little nutshell...we are a bound of medical mysteries at my house, next is my 9 yr old who has been having hp and leg pain since december significantly getting worse, and worse yet, we have no answer, we've been to general physican, to orthopedist who sent us to a rheumatologist. she's been poked twice for a bunch of blood tests, and had 2 xrays - twice a dr has made a comment about her weight, and admittedly she is a little overweight but to be honest we've tried a regime at home to help with the weight, and regardless what we do, it doesnt shave off, now itneresting enough the one doctor specualts she may have a thyroid problem which may explain the weight but she's 9 yrs old with significant pains, can we adress the weight secondly and think about her pains, for crying out loud, she cant even walk sometimes - i do pay attention to her weight, and i feel like garbage when a dr says something, first and formeost, we arent a junk food household, i have healthy foods at home, she drinks water, loves carrots, salads, healthy food, we dont stock our hosue with cookies, cakes, and junk...so...anywys...and now my 16 yr old is having stomach issues where she doubles over in pain, so it's never dull at my house.....
Work thank god is picking up, we are getting really busy- i got a contact in @ disney, which i'm so stoked about, we are doing the ACM's in April, and i'm supposed to be getting tickets to go to that, i'm going in July to see Keith urban in concert, hubby and I are going to learn how to Line Dance, found a cool country club around these parts we can kick up our heels and have fun, oh, and I will be in a magazine in May woohoo - for my digital printing. we did a restaurant here with grpahics on the inside and outside, and now i'll be metnioned int eh magazine, IM SO EXCITED - and to add all that, someone nominated me, for woman of the year - so on my wall is one of those cheesy plaques "Woman of the year 2009" for contributing to her industry, colleagues, neighbors - or something like that - yes, cheesy, but it makes me feel all gushy so there...other than that, things are good, i was a little stressed about work but it's picking up, thank goodness - so i still will put out a sales pitch, you need it printed call me www.zinggraphics.com :) - more business the better, keep me open, let me survive this icky thing we call a recession - LOVE AND PEACE ALL - i miss everyone - keep me in your prayers and thoughts, thanks for always letting me ramble, without judgement :)

how did the roles reverse?

2009-02-14T02:01:39Z

so, my week has been busy busy busy - work is picking up, and we are getting thorugh it :) yea
but this week, my parents are fighting, whatever, so they fight, but mom kicked dad otu, and was furious, and then my mom is trying to make me choose sides, i'm not choosing sides, they've been married 39 years, work it out - OMG - so me and mom had a big arguement today,s he told me to GROW UP, and gave me guilt cuz i didnt choose a side, i mean come one - they are my parents, i'm not choosing sides, and im not getting in the middle - and i'm not sorry, i told her stuff she needed to hear for years, she has given us guilt trips, and i'm done with that, come one
anyhow, needed to vent
:(

krismaez @ 2009-02-01T09:29:00

2009-02-01T17:54:16Z

For those who are interested in reading them, but aren't on Facebook: and if you're on facebook, check it out there

25 Random Things About Me

Rules: Once you've been tagged, you are supposed to write a note with 25 random things, facts, habits, or goals about you. At the end, choose 25 people to be tagged. If I tagged you, it's because I want to know more about you.

1. I was out of the country twice technically (once to Mexico, and once to Indonesia) btw - that's a long flight 18 hrs

2. I want to one day still before i'm too old to write. I want to write in a cabin in Vermont, where' i'm like the secluded mountain man.

3. I dont know if any of you know I'm adopted. I found my birth family about 16 yrs ago.

4. I was born with ventricle septic defect w/pulmonic stenosis, rheumatic heart fever, and jaundice, a chromosome imbalance, with the doctors claiming, i would probably be "slower" than most kids. What do you think?

5. I like being the boss, even with the disadvantages, makes up for the powerlessness i had when i was younger.

6. I want to go to Europe but longer than for a vacation, i want to see the land of my relatives.

7. I have recently found out that i'm Part irish, and part Blackfoot Indian, adding already to Finnish, French, English, (note they all drink)

8. I want to be remembered for helping others, it means alot.

9. I discovered after meeting my family that I have four older sisters, an older brother, making me the baby of the family.

10. I've been married to my high school sweetheart that I met at Carls Jr.

11. My adopted family, has been to jail for problems with their foster kids. Some of you may have read the papers, it's was back in the early 90's.

12. I try to write complete novels on NanoWriMo, but life interrupts.

13. I am going to be baptized as a Jehovah's Witness this year, i've been part of Jehovah's witnesses since 1989.

14. My anniversary is March 19, 1990.

15. I like old movies, like Gone with the Wind and an Affair to Remember.

16. I love to read, i have lots of books, i shop thrift stores to add to my collection, which mostly includes the classics.

17. I like Vc Andrews, and Sidney Sheldon. I met him at a Seminar once, he's AMAZING.

18. We've lived in Fontana CA, Hollywood CA, Culver City CA, Albuquerque NM, and Tempe AZ, no matter where we live, we always move back to CA. I would like one day to live in France!

19. I act tough, but alot of things bother me. I want people to like me, and cant stand to have people mad at me, it makes me feel needy, but it's part of my dysfunction, and what' i've addressed from issues of being adopted.

20. I have alot of shows I watch, it helps me unwind and escape somewhat of my life. I watch desperate housewives, Big LOve (HBO), Legend of the Seeker, Sara Connor Chronicles, House, Heroes, Law and Order SVU, Smallville, Greys Anatomy, ER, Lost, i'm sure i'm missing one, but they all get Tivo'd and hubby and I curl up after a long day, and watch our shows.

21. My leg was broken when i was 3, DSS started to investigate, but suddenly it was dropped.

22. I had surgery last year for herniated disks (3 of them). I currently take med's for my stomach, since i have LOTS of issues there, and slow digestion. I am suuposed to watch what i eat, which is easier said than done, since i love FOOD.

23. Ive been hurt tragically twice in my lifetime. Once was when my birth mom died, she died 6 mths after I found her, she died of cancer, i have never experienced that range of emotion, and felt like someone tore out my heart, that was until my oldest moved out suddenly this year. The circumstances were not good, and i worry about her.

24. I only went to the principals office once. Mr Moore in 5th grade threatened me, but right before i opened the door, he called me over, talk about making me sweat. The principal office visit i had was in HS cuz the boys broke into Drama class, and we got busted. I held the lips closed though, i am many things but NOT A RAT :)

25. the most frighteneing moment of my life was when my daughter was hit by a car. She was walking home from school, and a lady ran the intersection. My duaghter flew on the hood, lady slammed her brakes, and in the street my daughter went. I truly believe God saved her that day, she escaped with minor bruises, limping for a month. The lady that hit her? Hit and Run, what a senseless act!!

re:me

2009-01-29T07:08:00Z

Ok, so life has been pretty good - work is picking up, one of my employees quit after we had some temporary layoffs, too bad, but we are dealing - look the hard part about being the boss is making the "hard" decisions. i know eveeryone has families, jobs, bills, but so does the company, and how unfair would it be if i was to keep everyone on staff but not have enough to cover the payroll, cruelty and immoral in my book - i'm doing the best i can, it hurts my heart to think that they think i'm being cruel, mean, etc but what can i do? meanwhile, home life is pretty good, my nine year old is in the school play, she'll be an "oompa loompa", HOW CUTE! As always since i'm not in it, i do the next best thing to reliving our times from drama, and i volunteer. Last year i was props, and dresser for the kids in the back, it was so much fun, so i donated to do that again, but this time to be in charge which is what i like to be "THE BOSS"...hahah - i also signed up for the phone tree, so when the parents need communciations, that would be my job, and since we all know i like to talk, it works well, as well as i can juggle around my already crazy schedule. Everyone else is doing good, fairly quite on the front so i cant complain. I go see the cardio on the 12th to check out the ticker, blood pressure has been hgihger than normal, 3 times in a row, so because i was born w/ventricle septic defect w/pulmonic stenosis (cardiac catherization done wwhen i was 2) - then i am a candiate for regular cardio visists, last one was 2 yrs ago, and i am supposed to be checked every 6 mths (my chest is feeling tight all the time morn to night, hard time catching my breath, headaches, and of course the high blood pressure), so herre we go again, i feel like a "FORD", fix or repair daily, but heart disease runs on both sides of the family, so no chances here :) -
NOW - CLASS OF 89
Note i finally got your envelopes out - 549 of them, to all of our classmates from me, yes i'm sure most of you got the postcard from great reunions or went to greatreunions.com to attend our 20th, but if not, i've enclosed some info with stuff i need help with in your letter - i apologize for any clerical errors, mislpells, extra envelopes, etc, i followed the master list from great reunions, and 549 is a lot of envleopees to stuff, adddress, stamp, label and mail :) - i recruited the kids, so if some of the handwriting is slightly messy or crude, well agian, 549 envelopes is ALOT - i wanted to send my own personal invitation as most of you my friends, and classmates, to say our 20th is here, and we want to see you there. sure maybe it's cheesy, lame, but i think if we all pitch in and cooperate with ideas, and suggestions, and of course ATTENDANCE - i think it could BE GREAT....so that's my soap box on it - i also wrote the same song and DANCE on facebook, now is myspace ;)
love ya all
have a great night

krismaez @ 2009-01-15T13:18:00

2009-01-15T21:33:36Z

so....life has been super busy. work is CRAZY which is good, but patiently waiting on customers to pay which has been a nightmare - but i'm staying patient and waiting :) - kids are good, my oldest i see her now and then, it's formal, and polite, we talk - it's different, she told me today "love you", so that felt nice, and she always calls me Mommy, so the healing is beginning i guess...my other three are good, healing too i guess. My 9 yr old has been having some issues with her knee, which now we found out was her hip, seems as though it's an infeciton in her hip, or at least for now we are treating it like that until she goes back in a month. if in a month she's not better, then we have to rexamine - GRRR- poor thing, sometimes it's hard for her to stand and walk, other days you would never know- so for now, we limit her activity and keep an eye on her :) - some of the dr's since she's been to 3 - gave me hard time, one told me it coudl "be weight related", granted i know she needs to lose some weight but she is only 9 yrs old, and all my kids around that age were chunky and grew out of it, so thtats not fair, i didnt get defensive, and i dont think i am, i just dont like being brushed off, then some make you feel like you are just a nervous nilly for paying attention to something, this doc made me feel good "said you are a good mother, you listened, and after 4 kids, you know what's norm and not norm", always better to pay attnetnion - anyways - all that keeping me busy, and a little worried and stressed, but you know....anyways check ya all later
PS kori, i'm jealous, you and my hubby are in vegas, hubby wanted me to come, but kids come first before me :( - hoep you both are having a BLAST, would have been nice to see ya

what was up yesterday

2009-01-08T00:38:18Z

So yesterday was beyond testing - i had four printers all give me problems yesterday, and then i had a problem with a cleint that forced me to drive to LA to fix, and then meet them back at my office, and then my kids called to say the freezer busted, so now i am forced to look for a new fridge - who knows the best deals? i want a nice one, we deserve it, but dont want to kill myself to get it, and then to top off all of my day ysterday, driving back from picking up dinner for my crew, and i run over an already DEAD SKUNK - OMG - the smell wasnt that bad until it was mixed with heat on the tires GROSSS - left work at midnight last night, fell asleep by 2 am - got up @ 7 am this morning to come to work with it's own sets of challenges today - SO - we are really busy, i'm doing pretty good i guess, but man am I TIRED - staying busy - finding old friends that's fun, what else?hubby iis in vegas end of week, wish i could go BOO - other than that, i'm good, not complainibng, just feel like a black rain cloud is following me

krismaez @ 2008-12-28T20:35:00

2008-12-29T04:41:16Z

so this weekend was awesome - we headed up to mountian high, stayed at Camp wrightwood, in this cozy small cabin that fit the five of us...we ate at the cabin, slept, and played in the snow. Saturday, we drove down in horrendous traffic, kids and rod went snowboarding,w hich included a lesson, and freetime - kathleen and I did virtual snow, adn took ski lessons - alot of fun, but man talk about working muscles i FORGOT i had geesh, they put on the boots, and had us in real skis - it was fun ....i learned the basics of skiing without the torture of fallin in the snow - getting up there FRI night was scary - we got chains barely before the store closed, and then we lost one in the ice, backed track to find it, snow and ice is one scary thing to be in but we were warm all weekend - i was prepared - this morning, we got up had breakfast in the cabin, then we got dressed, and had a mean snow fight, and thne cleaned up the cabin, packed, and headed back. it was life back to normal, cleaned the house, fed the animals, grocery shpped, started the laundry, and now winding down for work tomorrow - THANK GOODNESS it's a short week, we can use it -
a side personal note: i know that i dont celebrate the holidays, so while you all share your stories, with the new year coming, and of courese our reunion next year, i want to take this opportunity to say thanks, thanks for being my friends, thanks for seeing beyond my imperfections, and any wrongs i may have done, thanking for listening, and letting me lean, thanks for being supportive, thanks for the hugs, the love, and all the words of kindness, that you have shared with me not just this last year, but since the first day i met all of you. It is awesome freinds in life that help shape us into the people we are, who help us through all the intersting times, good and bad, so to all of you, i send my love, hugs, tears, laughter, and of course thanks :)- YOU TRULY ARE THE BEST,

re:more sadness

2008-12-20T22:27:10Z

So, when i think my life has just tapered off to somewhat peacefulness, another whammy, we found out this morning, my husband aunt died - she has braved ovarian cancer for months, and passed away this morning - i feel so bad because not only did we miss out on her, but we missed out because of all the additional family drama - we kept our distance for a lot of reasons, mostly to keep the family drama limited, but now i feel awful cuz we should have visited more, i knwo she knew we cared, we had seen her a few times after she got ill, but anyhow...so put me in some prayers, our family cuz i'm sure some more family drama will get kicked up - love and peace to everyone, while i find my happy place ;)

krismaez @ 2008-12-10T22:30:00

2008-12-11T06:41:08Z

so it would seem that life is somewhat normal i suppose, my oldest doesnt live her anymore, after a weird and traumatic departure, of which i still dont understand. Some days i beat myself up of the things i should have done, and not done, and wonder if thngs would have been different. Does she know under all the damage she caused that everything i ever did was cuz i love her? was i that horrible that it would spiral out of control like this? i am so puzzled, hurt, betrayed, sad, confused, and now crazy cuz i have three more to go. What is the right thing to say and do? how do you avoid the future of perhaps the inevitable? So, lets see within 2 weeks, i have had a referral from social services (averted, after she came inspected our home, talked to kids and me, and inspected - realized it was a call made in maicious intent), a week after that, my husbands car is broken into and GPS is stolen, then that same day our daughter doesnt just move out, but with a stranger, and he brings the police to our home with no good cause bringing more turmoil than i ever care to have ever again, prior to this, i fired an employee of which that's ot been fun, meanwhile, i'm still dealing with trust issues with some @ Work, and now to add insult to injury, my inlaws call my kids today to say they would like to talk to me, they were afraid i was "still mad", but that they would like to forgive me, if i can forgive them....remind me of why i need to be forgiven? I'm a little confused on that point, so that's life, and i'm dealing, i go to bed, i get up, go to work, come home, make dinner, clean house, go to my meetings, focus on my fiath, life is happening, and i'm in it, but sometimes i feel like i'm there but not there, today was one of those days, i was in a funk, i was in the motions, but nothing else, i wanted to cry, to disappear for just a moment somewhere else, i hate whining, and crying especially when i hear and know of everyone's lives, i feel selfish, life does not revolve around me, it just seems as if this dark cloud decided to follow me lately with a hint of something good maybe - business is picking up, and i'm landing some good business which is exciting, but part of me cant be so overjoyous cuz my heart is distracted. GRRR - to be normal, to not have the weight of the world, well, anyhow, i love ya all - thanks for the support, the ears, and the patience...i promise one day i wont just write drama :)
takes it easy, peace and love to all of you, cuz i know you need it too

Heartbreak

2008-12-01T17:13:17Z

i'm heartbroken - my daughter moved out last night, so abrubtly, wouldnt talk to us, broke our hearts, she hasnt let us into her life, and this is my fualt , and the guy she left with is a "christian", but upon arriving at my house, when my duaghter wasnt out side, he called the cops claiming we were holding her against her will - what rubbish k- she still is my daughter, i'm allowed to talk to her, see if this is the right decision, but she left, she left...what did we do so bad? i knew at some point she would move out, but not like this, we offered to help her, but she closed the door on us, wouldnt barely look at us, was determined...didnt sleep last night - cried and cried....all i have done her whole life is love her, love her with all i have, and this guy has her all twisted...

Writer's Block: Novel Ideas

2008-11-02T06:20:29Z

i write about self discovery through being adopted

krismaez @ 2008-10-29T23:34:00

2008-10-30T06:36:17Z

ok so the news today...i got my brace taken off, yea no more neck brace, i was really only wearing it to work, adn driving but at home sparingly - anyways - yea! i'm healing well, but like a dope i fell tonight at home - EEKS - was hleping clean the floors, stelpped in a wet spot, and BAM right flat on my back - hurt like you know what - hopefully that's not too bad - but i'll call dr tomorrow and ask her
hope you all have a great week

krismaez @ 2008-10-23T00:37:00

2008-10-23T07:45:19Z

so today was a good day. went to woman's confernece - talk about too many women in one place geesh- i saw Maria Shriver speaking, pretty cool, the best part, being part of somthhing as a woman owner, knwoing that as some women they speak to about starting a busines, i have already, and am successful :) - the second best thing, seeing my signage, banners, postesr, etc up there, pretty cool, and third, rubbing elbows with other women in business. pretty nifty.....went to church today, that was liberating, i felt tired, but then came home, and had this burst of energy, now i'm sitting down, after cleaning house, yes, cleaned house, and i know i'm huritng tomorrow, maybe wont be able to sleep, we'll see....anyhow, overall a good day :)
chck in later with ya all :)

krismaez @ 2008-10-22T05:47:00

2008-10-22T13:12:13Z

so my life lately: spiritually i feel good, when we go to church, we call them meetings, or bible study, i've been attending each and every one - i feel so good, life doesnt seem so monumental, sometiems i post, and i feel like I'm such a slug with only negative whiny commnets, but with my bible study, and my focus on my spirituality, it makes my life have meaning, it gives me substance, allows me to have faith that this life isnt al there is, and like most things "it will pass". I feel free from some of the pressures not to say that i'm not still working, and dealing with my every day stresses, but it doesnt bury me anymore - made me a happier person to be around
work on the other hand is good and bad some days. i have one person that seems to be the one thathas to be the test of my patience, and i'm trying, man am i trying...personal, my daughter turned 18, i'm so proud of her though part of me is sad...i'm sad that it went so fast, i worked too much, and feel like i didnt do enough sometimes as a parent. I made lots of mistakes but i love her so much that even writing this, my heart is swelling, and tears are falling down my cheeks. I wasnt the perfect person for her, not even close, i may have messed up my kids for life, well maybe not that bad, but i'm sure most of you know what i mean. i was a baby when i had her, and then baby after baby after baby. I wouldnt do it diferently but still. wisdom does come with age...i see part of me in her, she works hard, and though she acts tough, she's a weeping willow tooo - she stands up for what she belives in, but sometimes still gets stepped on. she is frustrated with what isnt right, she's a good kid, they all are...my only complainst are not listneing more, not helping with chores more, school stuff, etc. but no drinking, no drugs, no sex, i'm preeety lucky :)
i see nano is beginning again from what i hear, i think i need to jumpstart that too it will help me in so many ways :)
today i am going to the women's conference in long beach- it's a big event with Maria Shriver, arnold Schwarnegger, leeza gibbons, j Lo, and some others, those are the ones i can name o- i'm excited. we did all the signage for the show, so i cant wait to see it, and rub elbows with some of these woman :) -
i have to write an intervention letter for my sister - she's drinking alot, and i hear is driving. she 's a functional alcoholic, she works, takes care of everything, and still manages her days but she's drunk by the time she wakes up in the am, and goes to bed thrashed....i'm worried for her, so i' will sit and write the letter, and my 2 sisters will do the personal intervention. Part of me wants to be there, but she's going to be angry, but i cant watch her kill herself, or some one else. i love her too much...
anyways, that's my life ina small nutshell right now :)
i will post soon :)
love and peace

krismaez @ 2008-10-16T00:04:00

2008-10-16T07:16:20Z

so been a weird week - i'm tired, and sore this week, but work is busy and slow. A friend of mine i havent seen in about 20 yrs i have been in contact recently, and he may work @ Zing - we'll see - he's super smart, and awesome....kids are all doing good of course, just making me crazy cuz i hate chasing them to help me with chores. Work is making me nuts cuz it's that time of year again when i have to be the boss, and act the boss, which means pulling out my mean cranky card - GRRR - i dont like it - i have one employee that just constantly takes advnatage, milks the clock, and then makes it like he's the hardest working employee ever though on the other side, he's been with me since day one, so it's tough, and sometimes he works hard, but always work with only himself in mind really, for what' he's gaining. GRR - lately, i'm a little frustrated cuz i walk in the back, he's sitting, while his helper is working, when he knows i've ventured to the back, he suddenly looks busy, really, what is that all about? do you think i'm blind, stupid, what's the deal? he doesnt stay late, and complains when he has too much work, and when he's really busy, he's grumpy and hard to work with...sound fmailiar to anyone? my other pet peeve is when people lie to me, had a situation recently where this lie has been played out, i know it's a lie, but i havent confronted it yet, and it is burning at me - I HATE LIES - grew up with them, they make me crazy really - so, all things considered, i suppose i'm ok, just i wish they knew that i'm trying, that it's not as easy as it looks on my side of the table, i've put my whole life into this business, i sacrifice blood, sweat, tears, nights with my children, our anniversaries, a personal life, my spirituality, my writing, and anything else personal related to me - all to make this business run - here i am 5 yrs later, and i hate that i feel like i'm being judged. I write them up, they are the ones grouchy. how about me? why is it that rules are put into place? it's not so i can show i have power, or lord some god complex over them, it's for less stress, it's for structure, it's so i know where the money is bleeding too, do they not see that? Why cant they understand that i am a good person handling a lot of things, and add on top of that the myriad of children and daycare issues i deal with on a daily basis. if they are so unhappy, why stay? why not go elsewhere, why poison the bunch? sorry, i'm venting, i just have to realize i'm not going to be liked all the time, no one said running a busiess was going to be easy, and i have to have faith that things will work out - i'm just frustrated - cuz i trust and believe in people and i get let down, i see thier true colors, and realize that there is a small group of people i truly can rely on, sad to say
other than all that, and the deeper issues, i'm hurting this week, and not even the meds seem to be helping, though the dr says i'm healing well, but to "listen to my body", and take it easy. Sure, take it easy, she knows i run a company, have four children, a family, and all that maters happens thru me - i know there is only one me, and i realize me must come first at some point cuz without me so much doesnt happen, but i kind of have an issue no matter which way i turn :( -
love and peace all - i have been a complainer for long enough - i needed to say hi, and dump a little tonite - next post will be better

FYI - i got envelopes, and getting ready to stuff them to send out :) -

PS - by the wya, the puppies are SOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOO CUUUUUUUUUUTTTTTTTTTTEEEEEE

any one know of good homes PlEASE? i want to know the people that get these little treasures - let me know "K" selling them for $350

krismaez @ 2008-10-10T23:07:00

2008-10-11T06:08:47Z

so this week was CRAZY - we were so busy but got through it, i had to be the big mean boss - but oh well -

I'm working on sending letters to all my classmatse for our reunion - printed the letters, missing classmates letter, and biography, now I got to print labels for the envelopes, and of course stuff envelopes ooh the FUN

actually kind of fun - i'm looking forward to the response :)
here's to our 20th

krismaez @ 2008-10-08T22:47:00

2008-10-09T05:50:08Z

ok, so i went to Albuquerque this weekend to see the baloon fiesta, and enjoy all the new mexico food. YUMMY - came home w/green chili, red chili, tortillas, beef jerkey OOH YUMMY - it was a hard drive though especially not being able to get comfortable, but i had a good weekend. Work has been YUKKY - we're a lot busy which is good, but i'm having to play boss, and do write ups which I hate GRRR - and of course i come off being the bad guy, whatever....and had my dr appt today, so far healing good but she did tell me to listne to my body and TAKE IT EASY - so all of you who told me the same thing, rest assure, im hearing it all over, an i'm trying i promise....still got the neckbrace, but toook off the bandage today YEA
other than that, i'm tired, sore, and want to write but my brain is blocked - throw some ideas :)

that time of year

2008-10-01T05:58:09Z

hey i wouldnt ask but you know having kids means we are responsible of buying, posting, and selling, oh joy, and i have three kids to deal with in school so:

my 8th grader is doing a fundraiser - if you are interested, take a look at this website
www.wsifundraising.com

if you go to shop online, it will give you a window for State, and School - obvisouly CA, and Granada is the school - it will take you to a link with the name of their school, select that and then go shopping

they've got magazines, home delivery stuff, and greeing cards

i know the magazines they are pushing for you all to buy online, not sure about the rest of it, but try it and let me know how it works out :)

Whatever you all can do is awesome :)

me, and me

2008-09-28T06:40:47Z

So, i went to work a couple of times last week - ive been lectured by a few people, no more harder on me can only be myself - i know i need to take it easy, recover, but it's hard to do so many responsibilites, and even at work i'm only siting, and walking - no lifting, no bending, and no stress really - almost more stressfl at home cuz i' have no control of anything at home, i cnt watch what they are doing at home, secure the fact that no one but me is the boss - hence one of my employees kind of doing the big rooster on campus syndrome - but i'm taking it easy - remembering there is only one of me, and i must take it easy, cuz no me means a lot of things dont happen.

other than that,i must share somehting. i know most of you are different beliefs, and we have all walked diferent paths of life, but lately i've been motivated toward my faith again. I think the lawsuit opened my eyes to a few things, one that i dont want to be them, i dont want to profess to the world i am somehting but my actions dictate something els. I also realize that the damage to my family was far more than i realized, and by only taking further steps in my faith, is the only way that I can help heal the wounds. I also see the condition of this world, and realize I only want to be close to my creator, to show my gratitude for my life and for all he's given me :) - so i've been attending church all the time now which for me is 3 times a week - 2 mths ago, we had an assembly in Long beach which was 3 days, and tomororw is a special day assembly - i'll be up @ 7 to leave by 8 to drive to Norco, it will start @9:50 and end approx around 4 i think. It will be a blessed day filled with biblbe based talks, scriptures we can apply in our lifes, songs that warm your heart, association with my friends, that help me realize that without my fiath, i would be just a lost soul in this world. With all of that said, i've been happier, my stress flys off my back now, i realize in the biggter picture that without putting my faith first, everything else is vain - if i forget him, i get forgotten, and i know how that feels. I forgot for awhile, how good i feel when the effort is put forth, and there is no effort ltely, its in the mind that we need to go, and we go. All my kids have their own bible studies, as do i also have my own, it's inspiring, to help sound bible knowledge not just into our hearts but our minds, to help us walk solid in this world that seems so shaky

i'm sorry - i dont usually go all religious on all of you - but i feel such a security and a sense of hapiness, i had to share :)

On top ofall of that, i'm working on our 20 yr reunion - i matched up the names with the list Great Reunios gave me with the names from our yearbook, and i also check class mates, as well - there are addtional names that were listed on classmates, and not mentioned on the master list that i will be asking you all about - i will try to contct those by phone who hve a number, and those who dont i will send out letters inviting them to the reunion. Most of you got a postcard, with exceptio of David who they had listed as deceased (GEESH - i wonder how they got that wrong) - but with the letter will be my own personal invitiation, with any ideas of what they might like to see, hear, or do that would make our reunion UNFORGETTABLE - i mean after all, 89 ROCKS :) - i also will include the list of names to see if anyone knows where they are, how to get ahold of them, and if truly they were part of our class. Some names listed also have no address or phone number, so theinqurey will be put out as to get ahold of them, i will also see if there's anyway to get ahold of teachers that perhaps could attend. I will also be setting up a (in memory of table - i will print posters with the obituary, and pic of them from high school so that we may take a moment of silence respectively for our tragic loss of friends. I will also hope that no more classmates have been robbed from us, but i will ask for that as well - i may ask for information as well to see what everyones been ulp to. I was also thinking of asking any of thse who run a business, who would be intrested in perhaps sending some gifts, gift certificats or something so we could do drawings ...kind of like @ our 20th, but i will rely heavily on all of ur input so help me out - anythign extra we should do to make our nite fanastic

i was also thinking since we will have so many peopl here,that it would be good idea on sunday to do a picnic - and since we'll all be in anaheim for the reunon - maybe we could find a local place to do it, we've got a greatpark near my house that has petting zoo too witha playgroun - great sie park with LOTS of TABLES - so i will want some input on that - if we do that, i wuld like to mabe start early with getting some dontaitons, so we could either get it catered, or we can do a bbq - and maybe have DJ Or something - we'll see -

but i'm having fun with it - so help me out you guys - i dont want anyone to be disappointed, i want this to be AWESOME - so give me ideas "K"

love and peace y all - talk to y soon "K"

re:so

2008-09-26T06:27:25Z

So, today i'm running a fever of 99.5 - i'm not sick but i have a fever..??? any ideas/